So, you'd think that I would remember that for 9 months my baby girl was in the prayer room in my womb for 2-6 hours a day, depending on the day. this means, she knows the sounds and is comforted by the music. I LOVE THIS!
This morning was a little rough around the edges. Kennedi has been sleeping 3-4 hours at a time through the night which has been AMAZING for me (and Ben). But as soon as daylight hits, she's in a tizzy. So from about 6am-10am she has been screaming on and off. This is frustrating because I am man and can't bring peace to her on my own (which I would like it to be that easy) and then all that's left after diaper change, feeding her, trying to pat her back, is... prayer.
A wise couple (namely the Internicolas) told us in our marriage counseling that each baby brings out another ugly part of you that reminds you that you are man and HE is God. I am finding this is very true. The more I can't do things on my own, the more I get frustrated with myself and my daughter when she is trying to reveal to me what she wants by screaming. I then must realize the Holy Spirit is MUCH better at declaring the words of the Father that alone give true peace than I am at comforting her even in the natural. (this makes my job a lot easier, when God can be God, and I can be the best mom I know how)
That peace came at about 8am this morning when Ben came to rescue his 2 girls from our house. I needed to get out of the house and Kennedi needed her daddy to hold her (and I needed him to hold her too). Then, back to the intro of this blog, dad put her to sleep and she slept for the next 4 hours! She loved the singing and I got to pray and be before the Lord for a bit too!
Every day there is an opportunity for me to open my eyes and see His new mercies, and now another opportunity is to be able to reveal that same mercy to my daughter.
I did remember this verse though today from 1 Corinthians 13 when I didn't know what to do with my screaming little girl...
Love Suffers Long.
Saturday, May 31, 2008
Friday, May 30, 2008
a blog? no way!
yes, it has come to my attention that because i now have a daughter, and many people like to know how our family is doing and how me and the babe are doing, that i should start one. i think i trashed blogs so much when they were becoming a distraction for our community, in my opinion, a couple years ago. now, it seems the "fad" is over and now people are truly using them for real life discussion and keeping connected rather than a "way to tune out" when our hearts are so needed to be "tuned in".
now, after that shpeal (sp?) today is the day i start my blog.
As for me: I'm doing well. Today held what seemed to be an eternal morning. not in that i was caught up into eternal things, but in that my daughter didn't sleep from 6:30am-noon and then when Ben came home for lunch he calmly put her right to sleep :o) I am definitely being test and refined during those times when it's just me and her duking it out. ben just encouraged me a couple days ago with some good insight. "Bekah, it's not that she's angry at you or at me, it's that the only way a baby knows how to communicate ANYTHING they want, is to cry." This helped me a lot. The only part i have to deal with is trying to figure out what is going on in this little precious baby's mind that is making her cry... and keep crying.
Despite the time spent and energy/emotion given to try to figure it out, it's such a relief for my heart when i do figure it out. it's like i get new energy for the next part of the day.
I've been sleeping pretty well actually. Kennedi has been sleeping for 3-4 hours at a time through the night, which is awesome for me and for Ben who has to get up at 5am.
I've been getting some sweet time with the Holy Spirit even when it's not focused time. I feel like His voice has become more alive and His presence all the more present tangibly in my heart now that i've become a mom. new mercies are available for me. Praise Jesus!
As for Kennedi: she is just the most beautiful little girl living in a crazy world, trying to get used to life outside the womb. I'm sure that's a trial in and of itself. she is a peaceful baby and loves to be sung to and hearing us pray in the spirit. i've been praying colossians 1:9 over her every day. she's already getting so big and she's only about 2 weeks old!
As for Ben: He's learning to live with 2 girls now.. and is amazing at being a dad and husband. he loves so well and serves without complaint. he loves his "little bean" as he calls Kennedi and she loves him too!
I know this is long, but i think a start of a blog has to have a good introduction.
now, after that shpeal (sp?) today is the day i start my blog.
As for me: I'm doing well. Today held what seemed to be an eternal morning. not in that i was caught up into eternal things, but in that my daughter didn't sleep from 6:30am-noon and then when Ben came home for lunch he calmly put her right to sleep :o) I am definitely being test and refined during those times when it's just me and her duking it out. ben just encouraged me a couple days ago with some good insight. "Bekah, it's not that she's angry at you or at me, it's that the only way a baby knows how to communicate ANYTHING they want, is to cry." This helped me a lot. The only part i have to deal with is trying to figure out what is going on in this little precious baby's mind that is making her cry... and keep crying.
Despite the time spent and energy/emotion given to try to figure it out, it's such a relief for my heart when i do figure it out. it's like i get new energy for the next part of the day.
I've been sleeping pretty well actually. Kennedi has been sleeping for 3-4 hours at a time through the night, which is awesome for me and for Ben who has to get up at 5am.
I've been getting some sweet time with the Holy Spirit even when it's not focused time. I feel like His voice has become more alive and His presence all the more present tangibly in my heart now that i've become a mom. new mercies are available for me. Praise Jesus!
As for Kennedi: she is just the most beautiful little girl living in a crazy world, trying to get used to life outside the womb. I'm sure that's a trial in and of itself. she is a peaceful baby and loves to be sung to and hearing us pray in the spirit. i've been praying colossians 1:9 over her every day. she's already getting so big and she's only about 2 weeks old!
As for Ben: He's learning to live with 2 girls now.. and is amazing at being a dad and husband. he loves so well and serves without complaint. he loves his "little bean" as he calls Kennedi and she loves him too!
I know this is long, but i think a start of a blog has to have a good introduction.
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